Getting your head around weight loss...

Sometimes I struggle with realising how much I have lost. I look in the mirror and see the same person I saw 12 months ago - 30kg heavier than I am now! I look at the sizes on my clothes - mostly 12s, some 14s and the occasional (generous fit) 10, but I somehow think they are wrong.

Then I have days where I feel fantastic. I feel fit and healthy, and am very proud of what I have done. I still have a bit to go, but I have complete confidence that I will do it.

Do the 'fat person' feelings ever go away?

82.6!!!!

I have finally broken under 83kg. I've been 83.something for the last month. I've been losing centimetres, but not on the scales. Now I have just lost 1kg in 2 days! Might have something to do with 1 hour running group and 1 hour PT session yesterday, plus moving house in between. I had to have a lie down for an hour last night because I was so exhausted! Anyway, it has paid off – bring on the 70s!

Running Group Session 2 Survived and Completed

There were moments when I thought I wasn't going to make it - but I did! This morning we had a track that we had to run at 'race pace' and complete in 6 minutes. If we got back early, we got a rest. If we didn't, we just had to keep running onto the next lap. After the first lap I had a 30 second rest, then after that there were no more rests. I did walk some bits, but I kept going. It was so hard.

I must admit though, an hour goes pretty quick when all you are thinking about is breathing. I have read alot about how people have mantras when they run. Normally I count 3 steps and breath - kind of weird, but it works for me. Today on my last lap I was just repeating in my head "don't spew, don't spew". It was all I could do to keep going!

I'm doing the Mini Mos on Sunday. Just the 5km though – I am going to try and run the whole lot.

I didn't weigh myself this morning cause it was 5.15 and I couldn't be bothered opening my eyes enough to read the scales. But as of yesterday, I was still around the same as last week. Not bad considering I spent a weekend eating! All good healthy food, just alot of it. There were a few glasses of wine as well.

I survived running group

I survived my first running group session! For a while there I wasn't sure I would!!! I ran further and for longer than I even have before so was quite pleased with myself. I didn't stop and walk at all – I ran when everyone else ran. Although when we had a minute's rest I did stand and hold the treadmill up whilst trying to breathe! Just breathing was enough for me.

I'll be back for session 2 on Wednesday morning.

101 Things to do in 1001 days

I have stolen this idea from Katie, (http://katiea978.spaces.live.com/), who stole it from someone else. who stole it from someone else... you get the picture. This is not an original idea!

1. Get under 70kg
2. Maintain it
3. Get breast reduction
4. Buy sexy new underwear
5. Complete MiniMos
6. Complete City2Surf
7. Run 5km without walking
8. Run 10km without walking
9. Go to China
10. Go to South America
11. Throw a dinner party for my PTs etc. when I get to goal weight
12. Learn another language
13. Go to a health retreat
14. Do a yoga course
15. Try pole dancing
16. Wear bathers at the beach
17. Invest in shares
18. Sell my car
19. Buy a vespa
20. Start freelance designing
21. Try Body Attack classes
22. Go to the Blue Mountains
23. Go to the Hunter Valley
24. See an NRL game
25. Find all my old super money
26. Get my tax done from last year
27. Have surfing lessons
28. Have snowboarding lessons
29. Fit into size 10 jeans
30. Buy an evening dress
31. Wear an evening dress
32. Buy and wear some running shorts
33. Subscribe to Runner's World and WH&F mags
34. Sydney Harbour Bridge Climb
35. Visit my brother in the USA
36. See something at the Opera House
37. Go to a ballet
38. Have a facial
39. Have a manicure
40. Stop biting my nails
41. Have a pedicure
42. Go rockclimbing
43. Visit my cousin at the Sunshine Coast
44. Create a website for my photography
45. Sell some photographs
46. Find someone to pay me for travel photography
47. Buy Scrabble
48. Buy Monopoly
49. See the Northern Lights
50. Go horse riding
51. Hot air balloon ride
52. Hike the Inca Trail
53. Become involved in a charity event
54. Buy a round the world ticket
55. Go to Africa
56. Fly first class
57. Do ten proper pushups (on my toes)
58. Cook a roast dinner for friends
59. Spend a whole day watching DVDs
60. Donate blood

To be continued.....

Photo Update

Going to stay with my cousin at the Sunshine Coast on the weekend. She hasn't seen me since August last year – here's the difference!

Running Group

I start running group in the morning - I am excited and scared at the same time! This is the first time I have ever done anything like this - EVER! It is a 10 week program, training for the City 2 Surf. I am looking forward to it, but worried I am going to be the slowest person there. Not that it really matters I guess, but I've always been last at sports and would really like to be something different this time around seeing I have been training for 10 months. But running is still relatively new for me, and I am nowhere near doing 14km without some walk breaks, so we will wait and see!

Here's the plan for this week:
Monday - rest day, light walking
Tuesday - 45 min walking, 1 hour PT weights
Wednesday - 45 min walking, 1 hour running group
Thursday - 45 min walking, 1 hour PT
Friday - 45 min walking, 1 hour running group, 1 hour PT
Saturday - rest day
Sunday - 2-3 hours walking up a mountain!

After this week, I have 1 PT session left with Nathan, and then I am training with Dan. I am going to brave the fitness tests - including the fat pinching test - so I can really see where I am at. He will work out my fitness age which should be interesting. My guess is that I am of average fitness, my fitness age is probably pretty close to my real age (29) and that I still have way too much body fat! OK, that last one is a given! I haven't done these tests before cause I didn't want to hear the truth. I was going along so well on my weight loss journey that I didn't want to see a bunch of figures that confirmed what I already knew. But now I want to get an idea of exactly how far I have to go and what to work on, so it is time to face the truth. I'll post the results once I have them.